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Name: Jessica
Country: United States
State: Virginia
Metro: Newport News
Birthday: 2/8/1983
Interests: I'm interested in a lot of things. I'm interested in what you have to say. I'm interested in why you are the way you are. I'm interested in what you're thinking about right now. I'm interested in hearing about your day. I'm interested in you.
Expertise: *getting lost, not keeping secrets, being the third wheel, thinking I'm cool, forgetting things, loving indiana jones movies, texas hold'em, being a mum, Xchildren'sprogrammingX, loving music, loving babies, loving you, pirates, greasers, eating chilimac, being awesomeXcross, dancing like it's my job, praying, reading my bible, loving Jesus, hugging people, old school Nintendo, being 'to the limit', writing, reading, living*
Occupation: Mummy .... dun dun DUN!!!
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AIM:  Lucky13 LuckyYou
Member Since:
10/20/2003
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| Well, I can hardly believe that I'm here on my Xanga, about to tell you that I have yet another blog. Do I EVER update this one? Barely. Not enough to matter. And yet ... I feel like I've sold myself short here on Xanga. I always want to BE serious, but I like blogging about my real life too, ya dig? So today, now that I have my owwwnnnn computer, I wandered over to blogspot, found a template called "Scribe" [and when that's a God given gift of yours, shouldn't you use THAT template?!] and started a little something. No, I'm not going to tell you the name of it yet because I don't want you finding me - though if you have the sense God gave a turnip, you could figure it out. I haven't posted anything on it, which is why I'm not linking it, but at 1am, it's pretty to look at. Over there will be my "collection of exhortations for Christians today" and over here you're getting bored to tears reading about how fat I am. Such is life people; that's how I roll. Every time I SAY I'm going to blog more, I often do not. I am a very busy woman, and should be doing a million other things instead of blogging. Really. I don't even have all the curriculum for Andrew's school year in about 6 weeks - but I do have Latin for Dummies [or something like it] so it's a start! Along with the Book of Virtues, a Science Encyclopedia, a multiplication/division mat, and geography flash cards, I think that'll about do it. No, I have to get real books, I know. He'll do fine with me as a teacher, I'm sure!! | | |
| Counting October, I guess I've been trying to take control of my weight loss for about three and a half months now. It's insane, I tell you! I did not invest in "shapewear" because it's sooo dang expensive. I might as well get comfortable with the fact that this is how I carry my stupid fatness and ask Alexis [who is awesome] how I can do more to get rid of more from those areas. Ok, one problem solved ... ish.
I weighed myself the other day. I was shocked when the scale read 239. Two hundred and thirty nine?! Do you know how huge that is for me? That means that since October I've lost 21 pounds. No, not through much hard work, either. I had been going up and down and was actually losing my battle against my food addiction. I hadn't really worked out with Alexis for awhile [due to illnesses in both our homes and holidays] and was eating everything I wanted.
That is, until I went on this fast. A couple close friends and myself are doing what's called The Daniel Fast. Click the link, cause I am horrible at explaining it. If you're too lazy to click, I'll give you the Cliff's Notes: 1. It's three weeks long, 2. It's a VEGAN fast, 3. no raised up [levened] bread, and 4. Only water to drink. ONLY water. No tea, no coffee, no juice [unless it's "juiced fruit" and acts as a meal or snack], no soda ... well, you get the idea. My friends and I blog about it here, if you are wondering how we're doing on it.
Right before we began the fast I was 246. Ok, that's better than 260, but sheesh - not by much. So, that means in a little over a week of eating well [for the first time in my life] I have fibered out of my body 7 pounds. Oh yes, you heard me. Fiber. That is to say that I don't look physically different in any way, but one statistic is that your bowel/colon can hold anywhere from 5-12 pounds. WHAT?! That gross and crazy. I'm pretty sure that's the weight I've lost cutting out all of that processed junk.
There are a lot of things I'm going to take from this fast and apply to my future. I'm going to make my own bread. I'm going to keep eating lots of fruit and attempting veggies. I'm going to cut meat waaaaaay down and cut fast food out as completely as possible. We're also going to try to buy more organic, less processed, and SURELY things without high-fructose corn syrup wherever possible.
Just wanted to keep you guys updated [that read this and pray for me] because you all have been really encouraging. God is breaking my addiction with food and I want that more than I want a Snickers bar.
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| Captain America [Steve Rogers anyway, not Bucky so much] will always be my hero.
I guess I'm just on here to brag about being down 2 more pounds and hanging out at around 250. Now, that's about 100 pounds more than my friend Brennan, so there's definitely room to improve. I'm pretty sure that my goal in the end is to get as close to 200 lbs as possible. It won't kill me if I weigh 206.
But even though I've lost 10 pounds, I still look the same and that is a huge bummer, as many of you Fellow Fatburners can attest to. So, after a lot of consideration, I believe I'm going to invest in some "shapewear". Yes, most of it is rooted in vanity, I'm not going to lie. However, the way I carry my excess weight is so ridiculous that unless I start looking better, I'm not feeling better. I can only halfway fit into any tops at all because to fit one half [ladies, you know what I'm talking about] it's too big for the other half. Or it fits one half and is too small for the other half. It's continuing to make me feel incredibly self-concious.
I want you all to know that just because I'm trying to look more streamline than I am does not mean I'm going to stop trying to lose weight. I'm not anywhere near "healthy" yet, and that's still a more important goal than a size. I could be a size 20 for another year and it wouldn't bother me - as long as I was pursuing health.
So that's it! That's the new news. No news, really. I appreciate your prayers, and I'm trying to do you guys proud. I honestly cannot do this without your support, so thank you!!!!
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| You don't really have to ask yourself why I haven't updated. We all know the answer. I'm not doing so great in the fat burningness areas of my life. But, I feel that I started this in order to be honest with myself, so I'm going to persevere.
I've been on a little mini-rollercoaster with my weight [within 2-3 lbs] and it's driving me crazy. Last week I fell off the wagon in the worst way and ate everything in sight. So now, instead of the awesome and encouraging 249, I'm back up to 252. Ok, so that's 3 pounds, but when all you've lost is 11 total over something like, 5 or 6 weeks and now gained 3 of it back is kind of a bummer. Not the "I've done everything I should and can't lose weight!!" kind of bummer, because let's be honest, that's just not what happened.
But, at the end of last week, a Thursday I think, I took it on again. It's not hard to eat better, it's hard to maintain self-control and not eat my emotions. Also, having pretty good emotions lately makes it a little easier.
So there it is - I've lost, regained, lost, regained, and lost some more. I've not made it back up past 255 [which is really encouraging] so now it's about getting it down. I do yoga twice a week in my home with my friend Alexis [who is amazing, and I love her!!!!] and I try to walk every day. This will get better, I know that. Thanks for believing in me. I won't let you down.
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| It's been, what, 2 weeks now? Feels like two months, really. Almost two weeks, I think. I'm posting about this now because we've hit that time of the month that weight, hormones, and cravings seem to fluctuate the most and I know I'm not going anywhere NEAR a scale after I ate the world yesterday.
I did. I ate it and it was good.
On Thursday night, my aerobic activity was enjoying a show. I haven't been to a concert in twenty million years! That's not an exaggeration, that's a hyperbole. It was a crazy amount of fun, so it didn't matter that we had eaten at Johnny Rockets and my own record breaking time of "Way too fast - but we gotta GO!". I burned major calories rockin' out to House of Heroes and hugging them. They're all good huggers and it makes me miss Columbus and Joshua House.
But I digress. The point is, I'm still changing my diet. No, I'm not dieting. I'm doing this for the long haul, i.e. forever. I have to choose things that are good for me, not just good for me NOW. I still have to incorporate more physical activity into my life for sure. That's going to get me past the "lost the water weight" plateau and form more muscle which will in turn burn more fat. It's the ideal. So my friend and fellow churchgoer Alexis is coming over not once, but TWICE a week to kick my butt into the the fullness it could be. Sometimes THREE times. I have to work out my social life around this because this is what's important.
Incidentally, when I weighed myself on Thursday I had dropped to an incredible 249 lbs. Yes, I'm using the same exact scale for all my weighings. 11 pounds in 20 days. Not the worst thing to happen in my life. I do know this rapid loss is NOT going to last, that it's truly a fluke right now and that the worthwhile part is still yet to come. But thank you all for your prayers and encouragement so far. It has really meant a lot to me!
Lastly, if this chunky girl can do it, so can you!
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